My Birds Fly the Coup

I'm an empty nester.  My birds flew away... My youngest is now a sophomore in college and my eldest just found an apartment in the city close to her job.  I worried so much about this time on my own, especially since my partner and love in my life passed away when they were in high school.  What will i do when i am truly on my own?  I was really suprised by the answer.  I walked around my home and noticed how clean it was.  Um, did i say clean?  Yoga we say sauca! There was no overflow in the laundry room.  Their beds were made.  The kitchen was as clean as i left it when i went to work.  There was a sense of peace i could not have imagined.  But, still my girls were not here. That contrasted the peace of all my clean happy vides! But i knew they were not far away either. They wanted to come back and be home (bribes of home cooking and free laundry never hurt!).  Just knowing that they were not far away and that I will see them was so comforting.  Yes, I could have a clean and organized home for a while, but then i will gladly give it up for some girl time with my chickadees!  I thought when they left, they left.  The life story i painted for myself (like really alone, so all by myself-there is a song for that!) was so different from what really happens with loved one. So, what I thought my life might be like when my girls moved on was something i could not have defined or understood when i asked it. I feel that about everything in my life, always have.  It's so hard to say what will happen in life.  All i know is that if i keep an open loving heart and mind, the universe will answer.  and she always answers (:
namaste
yogatiger